iguion
August 13th, 2008, 12:02 PM
I'll start out with a little overview on myself, My name is John and I am currently 6'4 and 304 pounds and 25 years old. All my life i have battled with my weight and severe depression. Doctors tried many things but nothing showed real success. Recently my doctor put me on phentermine and synthroid to help me with my weight and sort out a tiny problem with my thyroid.
ok well here it goes. Recently my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me and I decided i want to make some major life changes instead of sitting here being upset about it. I want to learn a few other languages and travel the world meeting new people and experiencing new things. but I have 2 things standing in my way. My weight and my depression. I want to start with my weight because I feel if I lose my weight I will start liking myself more and thinking i deserve better out of life. I have hit a roadblock tho.
it has been a problem all my life but depression has taking alot out of my life. instead of having a normal childhood or friends or even interacting with family I shut myself up in my room and used the internet to escape my reality. now that I want to make an effort and try to become better, happier and healthier I find that my body is like a blob of jello. I can only do 2 pushups until my arms feeling like they will collapse. I can only walk on my threadmill for about 15mins before i get chest pains from my heart not being used to working as much. and overall I have no stamina for anything. People have told me to start slow, but is 2 pushups a day too slow? is there something else i can do also? I dont want to be like this anymore. I want to be happy and have a life aswell as friends and a better opinion about myself.
I also have another question. I dont know if its because of the breakup or because of the medicines but lately I have had no appetite at all. I have to force myself to eat because I know if I dont eat at all its even worse for me. but is this normal? I dont want to be losing weight because my body is deprived of food then get it all back + more when my body starts wanting more food.
thanks for reading all this and thanks in advance for replies
ok well here it goes. Recently my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me and I decided i want to make some major life changes instead of sitting here being upset about it. I want to learn a few other languages and travel the world meeting new people and experiencing new things. but I have 2 things standing in my way. My weight and my depression. I want to start with my weight because I feel if I lose my weight I will start liking myself more and thinking i deserve better out of life. I have hit a roadblock tho.
it has been a problem all my life but depression has taking alot out of my life. instead of having a normal childhood or friends or even interacting with family I shut myself up in my room and used the internet to escape my reality. now that I want to make an effort and try to become better, happier and healthier I find that my body is like a blob of jello. I can only do 2 pushups until my arms feeling like they will collapse. I can only walk on my threadmill for about 15mins before i get chest pains from my heart not being used to working as much. and overall I have no stamina for anything. People have told me to start slow, but is 2 pushups a day too slow? is there something else i can do also? I dont want to be like this anymore. I want to be happy and have a life aswell as friends and a better opinion about myself.
I also have another question. I dont know if its because of the breakup or because of the medicines but lately I have had no appetite at all. I have to force myself to eat because I know if I dont eat at all its even worse for me. but is this normal? I dont want to be losing weight because my body is deprived of food then get it all back + more when my body starts wanting more food.
thanks for reading all this and thanks in advance for replies